"I'm a little confused." Wow, what a master of understatement. She smiled. I'm sure that I was red as a beet. I was embarassed and very close to getting angry with her. If this was some sort of elaborate tease, it was a cruel one for sure. "That's true enough. Most men are. Tell me, how long has it been since you felt attractive?" Well. That certainly caught me by surprise. To be honest, I don't know if I've ever felt attractive. Not physically anyway.

Growing up I had some real conflicting needs - - the need for attention, yet wanting to blend in to the background. I wanted people to be close to, but I wouldn't let them in. That's probably why my marriage failed - - my wife could never get inside of my head because I wouldn't let her. Some sort of trust thing. Well, anyway, I had to come up with some sort of answer....